About The Blog

So here we are then

This is me writing a blog, ha ha who would have though it?

In 1996 when I was 15 I went through the worst depression up to that date.  one day I woke up at 4am, raided the medicine cabinet got dressed and left the house. I walked down to a stretch of railway line where trains passed at 85mph.  I took a cocktail of pills and laid across the tracks and just waited . . . . .

The pills kicked in within 10 mins and I was laid on the tracks slipping into an unconscious state.  The last thing I remember was a sense of relief that as soon as the 5:03 to London approached I would be dead.

What I didn’t know at the time was that the RMT union were holding a 24 hour strike and there was going to be no train that day.

I was found by a man walking his dog, he called 999 and they got me off the tracks and into hospital.

As soon as I was conscious i was admitted to a mental health unit who assessed me and came to the conclusion that all was not well . . . . Over the next few years I had assessments and meeting and the conclusion after 2 years was that I have bipolar

 

I have severe Bipolar disorder

for people that dont know about bipolar I will try to explain in 2 – 3 sentences what’s taken me and a team of mental health doctors years to work out . . . .

Bipolar for me is living my life constantly on the edge. Sometime ecstatic highs where I become the most creative and funny person you will ever meet. im invincible!  (or i think i am)  and then there are the miserable lows where I just want to go to sleep and never wake up.

These episodes run in cycles of 3-4 months and im very rarely on the same level of sanity.

with a cocktail of legal drugs and a team of mental health workers behind me, I keep alive and save and basically keep ticking over.

My life is controlled by Bipolar.  >> read more about MY bipolar here

 

So this blog then  . . . . . . 

Well lets just keep it simple. my plan is to document each day. My thoughts, my actions and concerns.

I cant guarantee that every day will be exciting, that would be silly. sometimes its going to be difficult to read, Especially in the dark days when i’m feeling low.

I CAN guarantee that along the way there will be laughs, tears, inspiration, and lots of other things to take up 15 minutes of your day.

you might decide that im just a complete nut case and hope you never come across my blog again but what I am hoping for is that you stay a while, have a good read and experience what its like to live with Bipolar.

 

A Letter Of Hope

I think at its core this blog will be an open letter of support to all other Bipolar sufferers out there.

As the blog progresses Ill probably change this page. . . .i’m at the beginning of a new journey. lets see where I end up